Monday, September 20, 2010
A change is gonna come...
I'm changing my blog to be all about the kids and what they're up to. I'll add photos and details about how they're doing. Stay tuned for new postings soon...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Get through today
Just get through today. That is my life's motto at the moment. You know the saying "We plan and God laughs", the older I get the more that rings true. I find myself constantly having to adjust my plans to deal with the situations that are presented before me.
My family shares a home with my Mom and my sister with special needs. When we originally decided to live together it was on the basis of helping each other but then there came a time when it was a necessity because my husband and I couldn't live independently. Over the summer we decided it was time to move. We started planning, looking at rental homes, ect. Then my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. Everything changed. I know it seems overwhelming to have to battle breast cancer and live with 5 kids, but that's what she wants. She needs help and so I'm here. I personally value the fact that I live with her and can take care of her right now. I value spending alone time with her when we go to the doctor or she gets her chemo. With 5 kids and our crazy, busy schedule I couldn't be there for her if we lived somewhere else. God planned.
My Mom having breast cancer brings me back to the title sentence of "Get me through today". I am doing everything in my power to keep our kids lives as normal as possible. This stems from my childhood and having my sister have constant hospitalizations and extra needs and my Mom being stretched too thin to do much for me. I get it. I'm not sad about my childhood because I know she did everything she could. I respect her. For me though I have a partner and so I can do more. The kids are all very active in sports, dance, music, and school. I want them to stay active so this is never a time in their lives to look back on and be sad. I'm also active because I need that distraction. I go to school full time, I am on the PTA, I volunteer in their school, and I am on my neighborhood activities committee. I am in a constant state of controlled chaos but it works, most of the time.
My family shares a home with my Mom and my sister with special needs. When we originally decided to live together it was on the basis of helping each other but then there came a time when it was a necessity because my husband and I couldn't live independently. Over the summer we decided it was time to move. We started planning, looking at rental homes, ect. Then my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. Everything changed. I know it seems overwhelming to have to battle breast cancer and live with 5 kids, but that's what she wants. She needs help and so I'm here. I personally value the fact that I live with her and can take care of her right now. I value spending alone time with her when we go to the doctor or she gets her chemo. With 5 kids and our crazy, busy schedule I couldn't be there for her if we lived somewhere else. God planned.
My Mom having breast cancer brings me back to the title sentence of "Get me through today". I am doing everything in my power to keep our kids lives as normal as possible. This stems from my childhood and having my sister have constant hospitalizations and extra needs and my Mom being stretched too thin to do much for me. I get it. I'm not sad about my childhood because I know she did everything she could. I respect her. For me though I have a partner and so I can do more. The kids are all very active in sports, dance, music, and school. I want them to stay active so this is never a time in their lives to look back on and be sad. I'm also active because I need that distraction. I go to school full time, I am on the PTA, I volunteer in their school, and I am on my neighborhood activities committee. I am in a constant state of controlled chaos but it works, most of the time.
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